Future does not exist

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2020.07.25 at 19:37

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I realize that the past has not disappeared , it is precisely etched in eternity.  I feel it more and more, as if it was  god himself who was moved by our memories, as if they were engraved in his depth like the most precious thing. The past is the only thing we can know. Every second of the present is already in the past. You don’t know the present, you can only be attentive, but everything that is happening before your eyes has already happened. The future simply does not exist. It is only this eternal tale, the past that demands your attention. It makes me remember Dante saying :

«Noi veggiam, come quei c’ha mala luce, le cose», disse, «che ne son lontano; cotanto ancor ne splende il sommo duce. 102 Quando s’appressano o son, tutto è vano nostro intelletto; e s’altri non ci apporta, nulla sapem di vostro stato umano. 105 Però comprender puoi che tutta morta fia nostra conoscenza da quel punto che del futuro fia chiusa la porta». ////

“We see, like those with faulty vision,
things at a distance, he replied. That much,
for us, the mighty Ruler’s light still shines.
‘When things draw near or happen now,
our minds are useless. Without the words of others
we can know nothing of your human state.
Thus it follows that all our knowledge
will perish at the very moment
the portals of the future close.”

 

 

Visual of mythic substance

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I sat down in my backyard all morning  and searched for the Nebula that inspired Van Gogh stars. It was in 1845, William Parsons could for the first time in the Irish sky glimpse and draw the spiral structure of what he thought to be a Nebula .. it became a sensation throughout Europe and inspired Van Gogh’s The Starry Night.

 

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Theatre curtains before Piaf appears en avant premiere to sing je ne regrette rien.

Topophilia

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“The house resembles a child’s drawing.  A deputizing childishness which grew forth because someone prematurely renounced the charge of being a child. Open the doors, enter! Inside unrest dwells in the ceiling and peace in the walls. Above the bed there hangs an amateur painting representing a ship with seventeen sails, rough sea and a wind which the gilded frame cannot subdue.

It is always so early in here, it is before the crossroads, before the irrevocable choices. I am grateful for this life!  And yet I miss the alternatives. All sketches wish to be real.”

Tomas Tranströmer in La place sauvage- Det vilda torget

“There exists for each one of us an oneiric house, a house of dream-memory, that is lost in the shadow of a beyond of the real past.”

Gaston Bachelard – La poétique de l’espace.

 

Futurology

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Man get lost in the city without limit.  Architects enlarged the tunnel until we lost sight of its walls. They support, strengthen, charge the density of the miniaturized world and then they invent windows to run away in slow motion.

“Already more than once I’ve been asked why I think or imagine a utopian country, a utopian world where everything will be good, in which we all will be good. Answering this, if you constantly compare yourself to the horror of this everyday life, can be a paradox, because what we have is nothing. You are rich if you have something that is more than material things. And I don’t believe in this materialism, this consummation society, this capitalism, this monstrosity that is perpetrated here, this enrichment of people who have no right to get rich behind our backs. I truly believe in something, and then I say ′′ a day will come “. And a day will come. Yes, it probably won’t come, because they’ve always destroyed it, it’s been so many millennia that they destroy it. It won’t come and nevertheless I believe it, because if I couldn’t believe it anymore, I couldn’t even write anymore.”

Ingeborg Bachmann

(Rome, October 17, 1973…)

Pigeonhole

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“I tried to rescue myself from this plight by seeking refuge in the spiritual world of the Ancients. Plato I avoided, for I dreaded the perilousness of his imagination. Of them all, I in­tended to concentrate on Seneca and Cicero. Through the harmony of their clearly defined and orderly ideas I hoped to regain my health. But I was unable to find my way to them. These ideas, I understood them well: I saw their wonderful interplay rise before me like magnificent fountains upon which played golden balls. I could hover around them and watch how they played, one with the other; but they were concerned only with each other, and the most profound, most personal quality of my thinking remained excluded from this magic circle. In their company I was overcome by a terrible sense of loneliness; I felt like someone locked in a garden sur­rounded by eyeless statues. So once more I escaped into the open.”

Hugo von Hofmannsthal

The Letter of Lord Chandos

That’s what I am

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”Perhaps that’s what I feel, an outside and an inside and me in the middle, perhaps that’s what I am, the thing that divides the world in two, on the one side the outside, on the other the inside, that can be as thin as foil, I’m neither one side nor the other, I’m in the middle, I’m the partition, I’ve two surfaces and no thickness, perhaps that’s what I feel, myself vibrating, I’m the tympanum, on the one hand the mind, on the other the world, I don’t belong to either”

« C’est peut-être ça que je sens, qu’il y a un dehors et un dedans et moi au milieu, c’est peut-être ça que je suis, la chose qui divise le monde en deux, d’une part le dehors, de l’autre le dedans, ça peut être mince comme une lance, je ne suis ni d’un côté ni de l’autre, je suis au milieu, je suis la cloison, j’ai deux faces et pas d’épaisseur, c’est peut-être ça que je sens, je me sens qui vibre, je suis le tympan, d’un côté c’est le crâne, de l’autre le monde, je ne suis ni l’un ni l’autre »

Samuel Beckett, l’innommable, Paris, 1953, p.204

 

How to Survive the Agony of Falling in Love

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The falling-in-love may be reciprocal, or it may be onesided; it may be successful, or it may be unsuccessful; it may be only a surface indication of other and very different events; but anyhow, deep down in the sub-conscious world, something is happening. It may be that two unseen and only dimly suspected existences are becoming really and permanently united; it may be that for a certain period, or (what perhaps comes to the same thing) that to a certain depth, they are transfusing and profoundly modifying each other; it may be that the mingling of elements and the transformation is taking place almost entirely in one person, and only to a slight degree or hardly at all in the other; yet in all these cases — beneath the illusions, the misapprehensions, the mirage and the maya, the surface satisfactions and the internal disappointments — something very real is happening, an important growth and evolution is taking place. Edward Carpenter

With the Blink of an Eye

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Thus, all existence is like the clouds. Each created thing appears to be solid and firm, but in truth it is insubstantial and transitory:  “Man’s origin is dust and his end is unto dust. He earns his bread at the risk of his life. He is likened to a broken potsherd, to withering grass, to a fading flower, to a passing shadow, to a vanishing cloud, to a blowing wind, to dust that scatters, and to a fleeting dream.”

These are not thoughts we want to push from our consciousness. These are not thoughts that need to paralyze us.